He had demons...

He had demons. We loved him anyway.

She and her family loved him and his son unconditionally. 

He had demons.

That day that is forever emblazoned  in their memories...the same one that scarred the very depth of their heart and soul...they found him. 

Dead. 

At the bottom of his hot tub...

He had demons..

They had all lived with his drinking. They had talked , begged, prayed, for him. His demons ruled.

What was he afraid of in the sober moments of his life. What frightened him that he would not, could not break free. He did not choose to break free.

He was successful, some would say wealthy. When he was sober he was an amazing man. He was kind and generous ....He lived large ...he was large in every corner of your very life...

He had a son...he adored that son. He lived for that son. Wouldn't you think he would turn his life around for that boy...who now is fatherless at three. 

He had demons.

The demons robbed his son. The demons robbed his friends, his loved ones. 

They won. and I ask to what avail...

We shall never know. Never know why the alcohol made him feel invincible, why it gave him a sense security ....a false one...why as he said " it's the only time he felt happy." Maybe numb would better describe it...Why he danced and laughed with his demons. Why he played Russian roulette with his life. Why did he love his demons more then his son....more then those who loved him..

We will ask for years to come...how could we have saved him. How could we have helped him...perhaps an intervention as was discussed. What? what?

And when I, I ask God. He says he never ask me, he never knew me. and I wonder how we all could have changed that...or could we have.

The sad ending to a life that we all wish had taken a different course..

I would love to end this...with a positive message..

But today I am speechless...broken for his family and friends.

I wish Jesus had been in his life. I wish we had taken the time to talk to him about Jesus. 

When I first heard ...I thought we failed him...even though he was not approachable in the arena of God...Still...could we have?

We will never know.

But it makes me very aware...that those opportunities must never go by without at least attempting.....

Only God knows...who would hear ''when we share his word.'

Rest In Peace...I hope you have at last found it in your death...

Kim Davis

You cannot turn on the television, car radio or internet without seeing the face of Kim Davis. The Kentucky County Clerk who refused to issue marriage licenses for same sex marriages, because it is against her faith.

She has been called many Nasty names, made fun of, her past dragged before the public. Four marriages, illegitimate children and whatever else she was or did before she decided to give her life to Jesus. Hypocrite they yell, they laugh at her faith, at her God and yet she stands firm. 

It is very hard for most people to understand her faith, I get that. She has decided that her "authority" is the Bible which as a Christian you know is Gods Word. There are no gray areas for Kim Davis. She does not live as most of Americans whose authority is "morality". She may tell you that "morality' is a fickle code to live by, because it constantly changes. She may remind you that once abortion was considered morally wrong and then Roe vs Wade was passed and it was morally right. That's just one example. You see God's word never changes and it hasn't in over 2000 years. It's survived all the "moral" changes that Society's have gone through, remember Rome. It was about as immoral as you could get and well you know that ending. Christianity survived and grew.

I wish I could say I believe her to be right. I wish I could say this is the woman I wanted to stand for Christianity. But honestly she is not who I would have chosen.

 As I ponder the question of why "Kim". I reflect on some of the men God chose , they would become some of our greatest Apostles...Saul of Tarsus, known as Paul who was a Jewish Zealot and his goal was to have killed as many Christians as possible. Peter a fishermen, not educated, at least Paul was educated. John the Baptist who was the forerunner of eating healthy. He ran about the countryside warning people the Messiah was coming and baptized them in a river.  Then we look at one of the greatest men in the Bible, David a man after God's own heart.  He seduces Bathsheba and then has her husband killed. Moses who killed a man. And so many more.

So who am I to say that Kim Davis is not the person to start this movement of standing firm in her faith , because she believes God's law supersedes that of five judges in black robes.

There are 40,000 pastors who has signed on to "I will not perform marriage to same sex couples". You do know that day is coming when they will start to be jailed. 

They like Kim subscribe to a higher authority .Pastor Saeed still sits in prison in Iran because he will not denounce his faith. 

I wonder is that just around the corner and is that what the majority of Americans want to take place. I don't think so. 

So as I  try to know where I fall in this Kim Davis debacle. I think ;

Could I as a Christian stand firm as Kim, it's so easy to say yes of course, but would I ?I hope I never have to decide. Would you be part of jailing your local Pastor or Priest because he stood for his faith in God. Rest assured that day is coming. In the mean time, Kim is in jail, everyone who thought she should be can now rest. She seems comfortable there, and she is determined to follow God's word ...He is her authority on how she wants to live her life. WHO YOURS?