She Thinks

SHE THINKS she was ten when her mother’s boyfriend started sexually abusing her.

SHE THINKS she was twelve when he started selling her too his friends.

SHE THINKS she was fourteen when she decided to take to the streets “as she put it “to start keeping the money myself”.

 But that did not work, so to survive she became a slave to those who would now own her.

SHE THINKS she once had the same dreams as you and I.

SHE THINKS maybe her life could have been all butterflies and cupcakes. She aches for a childhood.

SHE KNOWS the night she woke up in that drug infested house, a voice called her out.

SHE KNOWS that as she laid there in her own vomit, reeking from her own body filth, scars from needle marks. Eyes empty of life and hope. That voice said He loved Her.

SHE KNOWS if she knew Him then as she knows Him now….she would have cried 1“O Lord , do not rebuke me in Your wrath….

She knows he loved her enough to save her.

SHE KNOWS it was His voice that gave her the strength to crawl over those comatose bodies. Calling her he was calling her.

6 “I am troubled. I am bowed down greatly: I go mourning all the day long. 7For my loins are full of inflammation. And there is no soundness in my flesh.8 I am feeble and severely broken; I groan because of the turmoil of my heart.

SHE KNOWS a brain that could not focus on anything but the next fix, somehow focused on following that voice, following that voice.

SHE KNOWS she woke up too clean white sheets, clean smells and a fragrance to this day she says was the fragrance “Jesus”.

SHE KNEW she was safe from;

12 Those who seek my life lay snares for me; those who seek my hurt speak of destruction….19 my enemies are vigorous , and they are strong; And those who hate me wrongfully …

SHE KNOWS what repentance truly is….she knows what being saved truly is….

SHE KNOWS to do what you and I don’t always do.

SHE KNOWS to never take GOD for granted.

SHE KNOWS always to pray;

21” DO NOT FORSAKE ME, O LORD; O MY GOD, BE NOT FAR FROM ME! 22 Make hast to help me, O Lord, my salvation.

SHE READS Psalm 38